Today was kind of rough physically. I'm constantly thinking about the fact that every action I take will directly affect the baby who is trying to grow inside of me. I don't want to take medicine, I do want to eat healthy, I don't want to be stressed out. These have all become pretty lofty goals! I've been getting some pretty crappy headaches lately, as a result of neck pain/sinuses. I finally forced myself to take tylenol after lunch today, to make it through the rest of the work day. For some reason, I was hungry but didn't really like any of my options. I'd eat a little of this and a little of that and was turned off by all of it. Even my favorite things! I went to see "Water for Elephants" with Alyssa tonight (whilst my poor husband sit at home working, after a full day of work, on a giant budget that's due Friday. Eek). It was a really good movie but had too many sad parts for my liking... luckily the very end saved it, I was very close to disliking it.
When I came home, I had a pretty comical conversation with Mike as soon as I walked through the door. He likes to make me guess when things go wrong with the house.
Um, it smells funny in here. Did one of the animals get sick?
No, guess again.
Did... something catch on fire?
No, but you're kind of on to something.
Did the basement flood again?
Combine those two things.
Umm..... Did the washing machine catch on fire?
Ha! No. The fireplace is leaking.
So there I sat in our bedroom, putting on a pair of pants that actually fit comfortably, thinking about the fireplace, and watching a couple ants crawl up the wall by the window (just another joy of owning this old house). For whatever reason, it made me laugh. I guess at some point things just become funny. I told Mike about this, and I don't think he entirely agreed, but it at least made him smile.
I'm trying to just go with the flow. Since the beginning of this pregnancy, the only flow around here seems to be the money flowing our of our bank account. But, I tell myself, we will not only have a baby shower to help with the cost of a baby but I'll be producing the only thing the baby needs to eat for the first several months. Absolutely free. Awesome. Beyond that, there is absolutely nothing we can do about flooded basements and leaky fireplaces. We just have to fix this stuff and keep going. I think to myself, I really hope that we aren't the only ones who have decided to forgo the "lets just cover it up" attitude of home ownership... I hope there are a lot of people out there who are genuinely fixing house problems the right way. I think about the people who will own our house next, and maybe they will come across problems as well- but I'd hate to think they would have any costly problems because of our negligence. It's a stretch, but perhaps God is already making provisions for the next people to live here. At least that's how I've decided to look at it.
One more funny story, I think God really uses humor to make situations like this more bearable. I went into the attic to check out the water damage around the chimney, and the stairs are pull down, pretty steep kind of like a ladder sort of thing. Pheonix is staying with us and was very concerned about me, and jumped onto the stairs and got about half way up!! Luckily Mike was behind her and grabbed her before she got any further. Comical relief for sure.
Anyhow, it's a little tougher facing these situations and headaches and hunger for crappy foods when you've got a little "nugget" as Laurie calls it inside of you. But I'm just going to keep on truckin... just like any other time in life. I think I'm going to get a Nike shirt and go around saying "Just do it" to myself. ha!!
1 comment:
Awe, you actually look preggers!
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